I say, "When?"
I'm getting a little tired of all these YouTube videos popping up from celebrities (most of whom are not gay) and other random people talking about how "it get's better." I know it all for The Trevor Project, in response to all the teen suicides in the past couple months, but honestly? It's crap.
High school sucked. While it could have been worse, it was no cake walk. No I wasn't teased or bullied mercilessly, but it still happened. I was just lucky enough to have such a wallflower nature that I pretty much slid under the radar. But for the first three years of high school I hated myself. I hated myself for who and what I was. There was nothing I wanted more than to be anything but me. To be "normal". I felt alone. I felt scared. I was unhappy. Finally I came out thinking it would help, not holding it inside me or burying it down inside myself. And it didn't. Senior year still sucked, I was still lonely, still unhappy. Certain people would try and start shit with me, but I ignored it. It still hurt. Several times I wanted to kill myself. But I didn't. It wouldn't have been fair to my family.
Now it's been two years since I was in high school. And guess what? It has not gotten better. I'm still lonely. Still scared(ish). Still unhappy. Those video, while trying to help and sound uplifting, are nothing more than bs. Those people either haven't been in school for many years, or are now famous celebrities who don't really need to worry about what people think. Because who cares? At the end of the day they are still famous, and still have money.
So my question is this: How long must one wait until "It get's better"? Because frankly I don't want to have to wait until I'm forty-something like half those people in the videos. It's been two years since I left high school. Two years. And I am still as unhappy, lonely, and miserable as I was then.
So come on, tell me, when?
I'm getting a little tired of all these YouTube videos popping up from celebrities (most of whom are not gay) and other random people talking about how "it get's better." I know it all for The Trevor Project, in response to all the teen suicides in the past couple months, but honestly? It's crap.
High school sucked. While it could have been worse, it was no cake walk. No I wasn't teased or bullied mercilessly, but it still happened. I was just lucky enough to have such a wallflower nature that I pretty much slid under the radar. But for the first three years of high school I hated myself. I hated myself for who and what I was. There was nothing I wanted more than to be anything but me. To be "normal". I felt alone. I felt scared. I was unhappy. Finally I came out thinking it would help, not holding it inside me or burying it down inside myself. And it didn't. Senior year still sucked, I was still lonely, still unhappy. Certain people would try and start shit with me, but I ignored it. It still hurt. Several times I wanted to kill myself. But I didn't. It wouldn't have been fair to my family.
Now it's been two years since I was in high school. And guess what? It has not gotten better. I'm still lonely. Still scared(ish). Still unhappy. Those video, while trying to help and sound uplifting, are nothing more than bs. Those people either haven't been in school for many years, or are now famous celebrities who don't really need to worry about what people think. Because who cares? At the end of the day they are still famous, and still have money.
So my question is this: How long must one wait until "It get's better"? Because frankly I don't want to have to wait until I'm forty-something like half those people in the videos. It's been two years since I left high school. Two years. And I am still as unhappy, lonely, and miserable as I was then.
So come on, tell me, when?
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